"In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth, the earth was a formless wasteland, and darkness covered the abyss, while a mighty wind swept over the waters."
It happens to all of us. We forget who we are. We forget the immense dignity that has been lavished upon us by a loving God, and we act in a way that not only offends God, it offends everyone around us. Perhaps it was Solomon's old age, but the great wise man, begins to build altars to the gods of his many wives. Solomon forgot his roots, forgot that God had created all things and blessed him with great wisdom. Solomon's behavior also makes us wonder whether his faith began to weaken as he neared death and was trying to cover all his bases.
Not infrequently, many older people begin to experience a kind of anxiety about death that is often surprising. People of faith their entire lives, they begin to ask difficult and unsettling questions. Is there an after life? Am I worthy of a place in heaven? Many also obsess about their past and wonder if they have really been forgiven. When this happens, it is important to keep things very simple, and with C.S. Lewis remember that, "The harshness of God is softer than the kindness of men (and women) and His compulsion is our liberation."
Today, ask God to let you feel God's compulsive, liberating love.
How do you respond to doubts about your faith?