"Son, why have you done this to us? Your father and I have been looking for you with great anxiety." Lk. 2:48
The honesty of Mary's response to Jesus' staying behind in Jerusalem to converse with the teachers in the temple tells us much about prayer. Sometimes only worried and troubled thoughts come to us when we look at the world, our church and families.
The horror of George Floyd's death, the ongoing effects of the Covid 19 Pandemic, and the increasing number of younger people who when asked about their religious affiliation, put "none" leave us speechless, and like Mary we are filled with great anxiety. Unable to escape these realities, we often seek outlets that free us from our obsessions, but do little to acknowledge the helplessness we feel. Mary's response can guide us.
When we learn to make our anxiety our prayer, everything changes. Though the anxiety does not leave us, it throws us speechless into the heart of God, and this very act becomes our prayer. Confused and hurt, we join Mary in asking Jesus, "Why have you done this to us?" Even in posing the question, we realize that while God has done nothing to us directly, acknowledging our helplessness frees us to accept the sovereignty of God in all matters, and teaches us to live with unanswered questions.
Today, with Mary, make your anxiety your prayer.
What does your prayer sound like when you feel lost, anxious and helpless?